It's WEDNESDAY
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I misses boyfriend
I'm So Done
9:05 AM
And so I confess....
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Sometimes, or maybe most of the time, I'm so pissed off with my work! It's not that I hate it. No. It's just that people lurrrves to make things complicated. They really take you for granted. If you make the effort to help them, they'll start asking for more...
It's like you give them rice, they ask for salmon. They'll make use of your generosity and kindness to benefits them more than they deserves. Enough of it! I'm sick of helping too much. What you ask, is what you'll get.
A quote from a colleague -
"Don't take my kindness as a weakness."
Recently, the ex has been contacting me through Myspace this year. I really don't know why he's contacting me again after all these years. I don't even know how he manage to get in contact with me in the first place. I know I was harsh. Yes, at that point of time I wanted to focus on my studies coz I want to show THEM that I can succeed in life even though I was stereotyped just because I was born in Indonesia, and my mom is an Indonesian, you can just discriminate us? WTF lah kan.
And moreover, I just don't find him right for me. We have secrets here and there though we were together for quite some time. I hardly knows about his background. We contact each other once in a while.... Somehow, I can say I barely know him.
He added me in Friendster, I have yet to accept. The conversation he asked me through Myspace, I reply him directly. He wants to get in contact with me back, I told him we are already in contact. When he said that wasn't what he meant, and left me his phone no, I went hiatus. I went hiatus on him twice, he send me another mail.
Currently, I receive another mail. From him. Asking for forgiveness, Coz it's Syawal.... I already forgiven him for any wrongdoing, I already halal-fied his meals. I've no grudges against him.
I was ready to reply him for the forgiveness and hopes he forgives me too.
The last sentence. The very last sentence of his makes me hold back.
To people, it's nothing offensive, nothing so serious. But if you know how to read between the lines, you just know..... Because of that, I dare not reply to him.
I told boyfie regarding this. I don't want him to be out of the loop. I don't want to be sneaking his back. So far, he understood me. He was there with me when the ex was waiting for me under my block. He was the one who told me let bygones be bygones.
Well, whatever the intention of the ex, as long as he's not back to take 'revenge' on me, I'm happy with my life now.
p/s: 2 more months for you to wear your dream watch.... Persevere.
I'm So Done
2:46 PM
To Whoever Reading This
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Selamat Hari Raya!!!!
In any case that the content of my blog, or my speech prick and hurt the slightest feeling of yours, eventhough I not refering to you (case cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa sakit), minal aidin wal faizin, mohon maaf lahir & batin.
p/s: I got to know, infact, boyfie did read my blog... Happy tak terangkat uh!!! So all this while, every single sentence I mention abt him, he indeed know. Kembang kuncup ar dianya eh! hehehe...
I love you.
Jom tengok wayang???
I'm So Done
10:54 AM
Finally....
Friday, September 11, 2009
Yahoooo.....!!!!
I no longer feel the pain I felt in the early days of Ramadhan.
Since Wednesday, I nolonger feel fatigue, nausea, giddy or watever I felt before!
It's a good thing! I need not need to go to the toilet every now and then just to freshen up myself.
I now feel perfectly fine.
It's a breeze!!!
Thank God.
Alhamdulillah....Btw, I still havn't get my baju raya....
Left 8 more days to Syawal....
I'm So Done
2:46 PM
Waiting for Iftar
Monday, September 07, 2009
This year's fasting month is so much different than those I've gone through...
The feeling of nausea will evades me after 12 noon. And it'll stay there till 6pm. Seriously, I don't really know the cause of this.
Blame it on the drugs I've been taking? Well, maybe... But I've stopped for 3 days already, and the feeling is still there.
It's like a serious headache and pressure around your neck, When I tilt my head upwards, the feeling of vomiting will starts to conquer.
Recently, I've been seeing doctor quite often, over just a small flu or cough (which we never know, maybe it's H1N1) and mainly for the MCs I'm entitled to.....
This year's fasting month, I can feel the hunger and the energy being drained away from my body. It's really a new thing from me, for the fact that I started fasting at the age of 1yr+...
I don't really feel this hungry before. I don't really feel this suffering before.
To me, fasting is just, nothing... Until now.
I've been complaining this to boyfie. Thank you Allah, for giving me an understanding man in my life, who I pray to spend my eternity with. Amin.
He do understand that sometimes I'll get gastric. The worst gastric happened when we went for our first NDP Preview. I was in so much agony. I keep on scolding him over the slightest sentence he speaks. Mom, adik and especially him, told me to eat something but at that moment of time I just can't. Blame it on the goodie bag coordinator for not supplying enough food! There's no stall that opens at the Marina Platform, unlike Kallang, and it's difficult to bring in food BECAUSE, you need to do this scanning thing and everything we brought needs to be scan. Imagine I brought in say, ice kacang and I need to place it at the scanning belt... Wohooo! the belt will be wet la kan! As soon as the event ends, I think everyone else was scrambling for the nearby food stall.
I'm getting out of track here.....
Back to fasting...
Well, I still don't know what's the reason.
Probably it's due to staying in an enclosed room for too long, or staring at the computer screens without resting, or the air-condition and ventilation sucks, or I'm getting too much radiation from the computers around me...
I just don't know.
And now, my back hurts and I feel like the balls of my eyes dying to get out from its socket. My shoulder seems very heavy and I feel that someone is strangling my neck.
Whatever this is, it's new to me. I never felt like this before...
By the way, I'm not looking forward to the 1st day of Syawal, after the forgiveness from the parents. I just hates going to my dad side!!!! Period.
I'm So Done
2:24 PM
I'm not in the mood....
Monday, August 24, 2009
If you read my post, you'll notice that this post is my 2nd post for the day.
It's Monday and I really have no slightest mood to work. I've been surfing, and surfing since I enter this office...
And I finally get to read my latest novel during lunch.
Wanna know why I can't seems to bring myself to START working? Well, it's due to:
1. I'm not feeling well
2. My nose itches
3. I'm having headache
4. I'm 'fasting' when actually I'm having my period NOW!
5. I want to grab something to eat, but hates the gossips that will surfaces
6. It's Monday, and Monday blues will only attack on Monday
7. I was excited to receive my health report today
8. Now I'm worried sick of my health
9. I miss my bed
10.I can't wait to 'buka puasa'
ps: I think I need to buck up on my work.... How ironic huh?
I'm So Done
3:15 PM
And Finally...
I've decided, I'm not going to upgrade my phone now because every mobile shops I go, people are buying Omnia 2. It seems to be the recent heat.
Well, I just think that one fine day, when the season tends to fade, everyone will be replacing their Omnia 2 thus, the market value will drop.
As for Touch Diamond 2, the reason why I decided not to grab it is because it is claim that Omnia 2 seems to be better.
Maybe, just maybe, if i got enough cash to splurge, I might just get my dream phone... I can't afford to splurge that much now coz the price is super rocket high ok...!
Oh! And guess what, 1st of ramadhan, flu catches up with me. Like finally...!
Looking at the weather this morning, and the feel of the newly changed bedsheet, I'm thinking of taking MC for tomorrow.... hehehe!
I'm So Done
8:40 AM
Cravings.....
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Samsung Omnia 2 
HTC Touch Diamond 2 
Which is more tempting???
I'm So Done
4:39 PM
